I took a huge leap of faith today, and decided to give away anything that has preservatives in it. We're having some friends over for dinner, so what they don't know is when they leave, they'll have some groceries to take with them :)
So, when I was finished, I went to our local grocery store to buy a couple things for this evening. What I wasn't prepared for was how emotional it was going to be for me. It was painful for me to walk through the isles filled with foods that Logan loves so much, knowing that (for the time being) he can't have them. It was also hard watching "typical" children gleefully walking hand in hand eating a cookie.
Now, Logan for the most part is very well behaved. He's a good listener, polite, loving and very kind. But I'm not sure how he's going to react once he starts detoxing from the toxins that's in his body, and he's not able to have that free cookie he's had so many times before. Lucky for me my son is a produce thief- we'll just hit the produce isle and hopefully he'll forget about the cookie.
On another note, I know I've distanced myself from some people that are close to me. Please know that I'm concentrating completely on my family and healing Logan. I'm in a dark place in my life right now, and I mostly find comfort in talking to other moms who are going through the same thing. I believe through changing his environment-that is the toxins he's eating/coming into contact with -I'll be able to see a huge improvement in his behavior. Also, one of Logan's fixations is the phone, so I'm spending as little time as possible on it (especially when he's around).
Hang in there with me- He's not finished with me yet.